Being let go and Letting Go

Every person is always involved: with work, with someone special, with a hobby, etc. You then build a relationship and you end up commiting to that relationship. You reorganize your world to accomodate that relationship, create a routine and get comfortable... and sometimes happy.

Just when everything is running smoothly, an unfortunate event crashes your world.

I have been with my company for a year now. When I started here, I had great visions and dreamt of excelling. Well, I did somehow. I was promoted right after training and a few weeks ago, I was informed that I was promoted to OIC of our department. Unfortunately, it didn't push through, I was layed off instead.

Of course I cried. My pride...my ego...losing a job I learned to love...the pain of being let go after all the hard work and effort to keep up your numbers and reach your goal. I didn't say anything, tried to be okay. Denial to the maximum level! Until, I could no longer hold it. I could'nt talk to my husband. He's the non-emotional, critical thinker type. He hates it when I cry over something which, he thinks and feels, does'nt deserve my tears. So, to vent out, I multi-tasked in our rest room :) yep, jegga while bangladesh while bursting to tears, lots of tears, while txting my former manager/friend Angel.

It was really painful. I cried, performed badly at work ( although, it did'nt really matter) for a few days- mourned like losing a special someone. Finally,all the tears fell and dried up, I realized that what I felt was'nt entirely over being let go; rather it was more of being forced to let go the job which I love and most especially my colleagues who are now my precious friends plus the fear of change.

My sister told me, get over it! Lost a job? You can find a new one and friends come and go. The only thing that is constant in this world is change.

Being let go and letting go feels complicated but, based on experience, it does get better in time. You just have to have faith that there is always goodness in everything in life. At the stage of mourning, having faith is very difficult to do and if you choose to wallow in that pain and not have faith, you end up losing more.

STARTING SOMETHING NEW

Blogging...

Heard of it, have some friends who are crazy bout it and back then,was't even interested. No time...hassle...don't have anything to say. Scared to be criticized?...mmmhhhh...maybe.

So,finally I had the time and the guts to start blogging. I decided to start something new, express through writen words. After all, they say, words are very powerful. Actually, just avoiding exploding in the future.

Hopefully, I will be able to write interesting things or at least something worth wasting your time.